I've said it before - admiring others work isn't getting me anywhere. And, yet, here I sit admiring. Where is that fire that is lit within others? To create, to put mundane things aside to attend to doing what I do love to do. I don't have a fear of failure, it's just material. Really. Where that came from, there is always more. I do have quite a bit of it along with a beautiful room that my husband created to house it all in. What good is it going to do sitting there until it gets sold or given away to others. Certainly, they won't feel the same way I did about it when I purchased it. I take great pride in telling myself "I made that whole quilt from my stash, I didn't have to buy a thing". Until I remind myself that I did buy it all previously and there it sits to use up.
I give myself pep speeches while at work that I WILL go to my room and sew that evening. Before I know it, it is time to call it a day and get some rest for the next day - another day of the same with me not going to my room.
There are charity quilts to be made, mug rugs for Christmas, small birthday gifts, placemats for the seniors for Thanksgiving, an umpteen number of projects that include redwork, embroidery, crochet, quilting. There they sit.
I think I need to concentrate on one thing. One idea. There are too many peas in the pot. Not knowing which to choose, I end up working on something with a deadline and then not enjoying the project as much as I should. I am a list maker and it seems the list never diminishes which can be discouraging. The list seems to grow because there are so many new patterns and ideas out there.
If I were talking to myself about me trying to find my 'fire', I have all kinds of advice. I remind myself how blessed I am to have no health problems to hinder my attempts at getting things done. Also, everything I need is all in one room. Perhaps if I just go and start, before I know it, a project will be finished. So I really don't need a pep talk or advice.
In typing this out, it looks like I have been making excuses. Which is ridiculous because I know that won't get me anywhere. OH! But, that's it! They are excuses. It's time for me to shake, rattle, and roll. I know, I've said all that before. But it really is, because life really is too short and once a day is gone, we can never get it back. If I want to make a difference, I just need to keep on with the projects on the lists and perhaps, once the sparks begin to fly, I will find that something special that lights the fire.
Tada ~ Trish
